Matt Matteson

Mexico was pretty good. Gave me plenty of self refection time, and people watching. First off, people watching; Mines has a lot of nerds. There were LOTS of nerds on my trip. Even if I wasn’t do anything, and just wondering around camp, I loved watching nerds socialize by the fire, nerds cook dinner, nerds fix the broken tent. It also further proved academic success, and knowledge does not equal social skills.

The group was about 55 kids I think. Prob around 40 from Fellowship of Christian Athletes, 10 from Campus Crusade for Christ and the rest were from CU or such.

There we no leaders, just college kids. It was awesome to see it all work. See we had tents, we had food, we had buses, we had tools. It came together.

We built two, 40′ (ish) long houses. I really enjoyed learning how to built a house with hand tools: mixing cement with shovels, nailing hundreds of screws.

Going on the trip I knew about four people, I meet tons of kids, tons of amazing kids.

The trip was probably not the most fun I could have had this spring break, but I do believe it was the best for me. It gave me time to assess myself, set priority in life, make a change in a few peoples lives, I don’t know; just a good thing.

I was very disappointed with myself on how frustrated I got with some people. I really watch people, and there are a few things that just catch my attention. I then keep seeing this attribute and further get frustrated by it. Usually I just leave the situation, it’s hard to when they are in sight for a week. I get VERY angry. How I resolve this. I’m supposed to be loving people. I love loving people, but a few people get me into this evil stare. There is nothing to confront them with, just myself.

That really didn’t take up that much about the trip. Just I don’t think I had really explored that flaw in myself here before.

I am excited for life. I hope now with the job, I can be lose with how many miles on put on my car. That means I can meet up with a lot of people I’d love to hang out with.

I guess this reaches a point I was driving at in the hand written journal entry I made on the drive back from Juarez. I know tons of cool kids. I really enjoy the company of so many people. I feel like I put a effort forward to hang out with them, I care for them. I love them. Then it seems, connivence is better than my friendship. Whether it be the college kids, hanging with the kids on their floor, or the high school friends with the people they see everyday. I understand I’m away at college at I am not going to be hanging with all the kids from high school (nore do I want to.) It is just those people I love for, a few miles and a change of lifestyle doesn’t have to remove friendship. I really want to hang out with you. I just hate the phone, and I really question if the relationship is valued from both sides if I am the only one putting the effort forward calling. I don’t want to keep wasting my time or your time if i simply was convenient company, but you were not that to me.

I showed about three times in Juarez. It involved a closed area and a half filled bucket of 40°F water. I finally got a real shower last night right as I got home. I spent about ten minutes trying to get the tar out of my hair. I later went into the bathroom before I went to bed. The shower was SOOO disgusting after my shower. The whole thing had dirt all over, the tar stuck to the floor, everything stuck to the tar. Seven days of my head shedding clogging the drain. Be glad I didn’t give into my thought of taking a picture.

How about that. Spring break has two days left. Today, Tomorrow. Tomorrow is easter and a day with the family. Today is at 12, I have a half day of spring break freedom left. Lets see how this goes!

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